Anticipation

I cant believe it's been almost five years...Jayden should have started school 2 weeks ago.

When I was driving the other day Reagan randomly asked me where Jayden was...I told her "In Heaven" she replied "can we go to Heaven and get him mommy?" Today she is sick...she told me Jayden was sick before he went to Heaven...She remembers everything I tell her about him...It makes me happy that she understands, but sad at the same time.

It;s driving me crazy that it's really been five years. It still feels fresh when I think about it. It still hurts. People always say time heals....I don't believe it.